I am at the space in between
In between maiden and mother
In between Hannah and Mama
In between family of 2 and family of 3
In between business owner and business owner and mother
I am opening, blossoming like the lotus each day
I am a portal between the spiritual realm and earthside
I am calling in this beautiful spirit to come grace us with his love and light
I am the body, the mama, that he picked to be on this planet with
I am in this magical place of amazement, understanding, and gratitude
I am also in this place of physical discomfort, lack of sleep, and curiosity
Most days feel like the days leading up to Christmas or a big trip!
What's going to happen? When? Where? Who?
So many questions...
But the one thing that stays constant is- our son is on the other side!
I am mourning the loss of the maiden
I am mourning the loss of the woman who needed others- now I am the one needed
I am mourning the loss of a more free schedule (let's be honest- a business is a baby)
I am mourning the loss of a family of 2
But with this mourning- I am embracing...
I am embracing each ache as my hips are opening to deliver
I am embracing each contraction as my body is preparing me for the big day
I am embracing the lack of sleep because not only is it preparing me for the long nights- it gives me quiet time to reflect, like now, on where I truly am in this journey
I am embracing this journey as it's not an easy one- but the lessons and learnings are amazing- and an even more amazing gift will be in our arms soon!
I am healed
I am whole
I am complete
I am strong
I am supported
I am determined
I welcome our son with grace and with fire!